Blood work results for today - my HCG level is 545. This confirms that I'm definitely pregnant. Yea!
The next step involves going back in tomorrow to have more blood work done to make sure my numbers are increasing and maybe get a better idea of how far along I am and if an ultrasound can be done.
So now the waiting game continues until Thursday. I will keep you all posted!
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
So Far, So Good
It's been 3 days since I "found out". I would say that I still don't believe this is all happening, but with my boobs now taking over half my body and feeling like someone is sticking knives in them, its hard to forget that I am "with child". As a person who suffers from anxiety and goes to therapy on a regular basis to control it (thank god for tomorrow' session!), so far I am doing okay with handling all the changes, physical, emotional, mental and even hormonal. So far, so good.
I have to go tomorrow morning for blood work to determine my levels, due to the fact that my cycle was so messed up this month. I'm actually starting to believe though it really wasn't messed up, I was just pregnant and it wasn't showing up yet on tests. According to my last AF, I am estimating I am about 7 weeks along. I could also be about 4 weeks along if I use my last + OPK, but with all the symptoms I have been experiencing, I'm leaning more towards 7 weeks. We will see what the blood work shows.
With these tests coming tomorrow, I am a little nervous about what they will reveal. I can't imagine them coming back and saying "I'm not pregnant", but there is always that chance for every woman who finds herself in this same state. I have even saved one of my HPTs for tomorrow morning, just to make sure I have a "positive" going into the testing.
As I said before, so far, things are good. I am excited, scared, anxious, nervous and most importantly, happy. I will keep you all posted after I have some blood work results. Here's to the next 36 or maybe even 33 weeks!
I have to go tomorrow morning for blood work to determine my levels, due to the fact that my cycle was so messed up this month. I'm actually starting to believe though it really wasn't messed up, I was just pregnant and it wasn't showing up yet on tests. According to my last AF, I am estimating I am about 7 weeks along. I could also be about 4 weeks along if I use my last + OPK, but with all the symptoms I have been experiencing, I'm leaning more towards 7 weeks. We will see what the blood work shows.
With these tests coming tomorrow, I am a little nervous about what they will reveal. I can't imagine them coming back and saying "I'm not pregnant", but there is always that chance for every woman who finds herself in this same state. I have even saved one of my HPTs for tomorrow morning, just to make sure I have a "positive" going into the testing.
As I said before, so far, things are good. I am excited, scared, anxious, nervous and most importantly, happy. I will keep you all posted after I have some blood work results. Here's to the next 36 or maybe even 33 weeks!
Friday, August 27, 2010
I Like This Change.....
I made some changes to the blog. Hope you like them! ;)
(Shhh!!! It's still a secret so please keep the news hush-hush for a little while.)
(Shhh!!! It's still a secret so please keep the news hush-hush for a little while.)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
10 DPO and counting.......
I know its been awhile since my last post. It's been a little busy this past week or so, trying to get readjusted from vacation and getting back to work and my regular routine. As for what's going on in the "baby making" department, still nothing ridiculously exciting to report. I say "no news is good news" though.
Its been 45 days since my last visit from AF and while most women would be enjoying this fact, for someone TTC, it can be a little annoying. As a previous post said, I surprisingly discovered I was ovulating around day 36 in my cycle and made sure Hubby and I went to work "baby dancing" for the next couple of days to try to take advantage of my "prime time".
As of today, I am about 10 DPO and have been experiencing cramping, sore breasts, nausea and acne. Why does this not excite me? Because not only are these commons symptoms for a pregnant woman 10 DPO, but they are also symptoms of a woman about to be visited by AF. I have been a little excited about my BBT though. (Yes, I know I said I would stop doing all this stuff, but for now, I am finding that my stress level isn't too crazy, so the temping is something I will continue to do until I go officially crazy.) So far, my BBT temp has been high for the last 10 days, except for a temp drop on my 8th DPO, which could have been explained as implantation (if you believe in "implantation dips"). The next day my BBT went back up and has stayed there. So far, its only been 10 days of these type of temps and you really need to have over 2 weeks of high temps to even think of pregnancy, so even though Hubby is getting excited, I am remaining calm and will wait to test until I hit the 2 week mark and continue to have high temps.
So, with all this in mind, I have not forgotten the letter I wrote to myself. I have been really good about remembering to love myself and not go insane with analyzing every symptom. I am just excited to be able to even have this process as part of my life and have such a supportive husband, who at times, is even more excited then me to get a BFP. The wait for that continues, but I am really ok with it. It's amazing what a little letter to yourself can do.
Its been 45 days since my last visit from AF and while most women would be enjoying this fact, for someone TTC, it can be a little annoying. As a previous post said, I surprisingly discovered I was ovulating around day 36 in my cycle and made sure Hubby and I went to work "baby dancing" for the next couple of days to try to take advantage of my "prime time".
As of today, I am about 10 DPO and have been experiencing cramping, sore breasts, nausea and acne. Why does this not excite me? Because not only are these commons symptoms for a pregnant woman 10 DPO, but they are also symptoms of a woman about to be visited by AF. I have been a little excited about my BBT though. (Yes, I know I said I would stop doing all this stuff, but for now, I am finding that my stress level isn't too crazy, so the temping is something I will continue to do until I go officially crazy.) So far, my BBT temp has been high for the last 10 days, except for a temp drop on my 8th DPO, which could have been explained as implantation (if you believe in "implantation dips"). The next day my BBT went back up and has stayed there. So far, its only been 10 days of these type of temps and you really need to have over 2 weeks of high temps to even think of pregnancy, so even though Hubby is getting excited, I am remaining calm and will wait to test until I hit the 2 week mark and continue to have high temps.
So, with all this in mind, I have not forgotten the letter I wrote to myself. I have been really good about remembering to love myself and not go insane with analyzing every symptom. I am just excited to be able to even have this process as part of my life and have such a supportive husband, who at times, is even more excited then me to get a BFP. The wait for that continues, but I am really ok with it. It's amazing what a little letter to yourself can do.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Dear Me.....
Dear Me,
I want to tell you that you need to calm down about all this TTC stuff. You need to understand that things happen when they are supposed to. I know you are obsessed with control, but unfortunately this is one thing you cannot control and need to accept that. You have an amazing husband, loving family and friends, finally a career you love and four "furry babies" that love you unconditionally. Most importantly, I want you to know that the stress and anxiety you are bringing upon yourself is not helping! You need to love yourself, embrace the life you have now and be patient for what the future holds.
Love, Me
I have needed to write this letter to myself since the day Hubby told me he was ready for a baby. What I mean by this, is that I knew I would work myself up as this process continued. I was excited the first month of TTC, and now on month 3, I am driving myself crazy that something is wrong, when I know its normal to take as much as 1 year to conceive. To help with controlling my anxiety, I read a lot of blogs and TTC boards. It makes me feel better that I am not the only woman out there who drives herself crazy with random TTC thoughts throughout the day.
So here's where I stand after writing myself that letter to myself. I am going to try really really hard to hide my OPKs and thermometer. I was told tonight "Stop making a baby and start having sex." (Basically translated into - "Will you please start having fun having sex with your husband?!!!) I know I have this whole process backwards. I should have done what I promised my husband and just had fun in the beginning and worried about the temperatures and OPKs down the line, but you live and you learn (and then you slap yourself on the forehead and say "snap out of it!")
One last thought - I have spent the last 10 years of my life trying to avoid getting pregnant. I find it extremely ironic that I am now doing everything and anything in my power to try to get pregnant. Life is very, very funny. I am trying really, really hard to laugh.
I want to tell you that you need to calm down about all this TTC stuff. You need to understand that things happen when they are supposed to. I know you are obsessed with control, but unfortunately this is one thing you cannot control and need to accept that. You have an amazing husband, loving family and friends, finally a career you love and four "furry babies" that love you unconditionally. Most importantly, I want you to know that the stress and anxiety you are bringing upon yourself is not helping! You need to love yourself, embrace the life you have now and be patient for what the future holds.
Love, Me
I have needed to write this letter to myself since the day Hubby told me he was ready for a baby. What I mean by this, is that I knew I would work myself up as this process continued. I was excited the first month of TTC, and now on month 3, I am driving myself crazy that something is wrong, when I know its normal to take as much as 1 year to conceive. To help with controlling my anxiety, I read a lot of blogs and TTC boards. It makes me feel better that I am not the only woman out there who drives herself crazy with random TTC thoughts throughout the day.
So here's where I stand after writing myself that letter to myself. I am going to try really really hard to hide my OPKs and thermometer. I was told tonight "Stop making a baby and start having sex." (Basically translated into - "Will you please start having fun having sex with your husband?!!!) I know I have this whole process backwards. I should have done what I promised my husband and just had fun in the beginning and worried about the temperatures and OPKs down the line, but you live and you learn (and then you slap yourself on the forehead and say "snap out of it!")
One last thought - I have spent the last 10 years of my life trying to avoid getting pregnant. I find it extremely ironic that I am now doing everything and anything in my power to try to get pregnant. Life is very, very funny. I am trying really, really hard to laugh.
Monday, August 16, 2010
So I'm Not Pregnant....
But I'm ovulating?!!!
I am sooo confused with TTC right now! Anyone with advice or experience with this, I am all ears.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Still Waiting.....
It's been 37 days since my last AF and according to my last few cycles which have been 33 days I'm technically "late". I wanted to get excited about this but so far 2 HPT have been been BFNs. I'm starting to wonderf if I miscaluated my ovulation date which could mess up my AF date. I am so stressed with all this stuff which I'm sure doesn't help with AF arriving or TTC. Hubby is all excited that I'm late and I'm starting to feel like I'm letting him down or something. So at this point all I can do is wait and see. Ugg. I love waiting as much as I love change.
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Hump Day Update
Two BFN POAS tests and BBT temps down this week. Just waiting for AF to make her appearance this week.
Interesting article I read online today said that a new study showed evidence that women who are stressed find it harder to conceive. This should make things even more fun for me since my daily routine usually involves at least 1 stress out. Awesome. Might have to invest in some yoga tapes.
Interesting article I read online today said that a new study showed evidence that women who are stressed find it harder to conceive. This should make things even more fun for me since my daily routine usually involves at least 1 stress out. Awesome. Might have to invest in some yoga tapes.
Monday, August 9, 2010
So Far, No Good.
So I gave in and POAS this morning. Hubby thought it would be really cool to find out if we are "expecting" on our Anniversary trip so we rushed over to a CVS (told you I would find a drug store) bought a 2-pack of POAS tests and waited till my am pee to test. BFN! :(
I'm hoping that it was too early for anything to show up and not that this month is a wash. According to my chart, I'm 4 days from testing, but since I'm not 100% sure when my body is ovulating, etc. (going off the pill is awesome!) I can't really be sure if when I thought I was ovulating was in fact the day. (I thought I got a positive OPK, but I also could have misread that as well.) I am supposed to get my period on Friday or Saturday, but again, my cycles are still a little unpredictable from going off the pill. I have been have 33-34 day cycles for the last few month so that's what I have been going with. Again, that annoying little thing called "time" comes into play and I will just have to wait and see what this weekend brings or doesn't bring. I prefer the latter.
As for any symptoms so far, my face was very broken out right before we left for the trip and is starting to clear up as the days go by, which is a normal PMS symptom for me, so that one doesn't seem to get me excited. I was having those weird cramps last week, which I thought was too early for PMS, but since my cycles are still unpredictable it could just mean AF could be coming earlier then this weekend. I have had no real breast sensitivity, other then a few issues with my nipples (isn't being a woman fun?!) but again, those could be both PG symptoms and PMS symptoms. As for nausea, I have been experiencing this since I started taking prenatal vitamins and just stitched my brand to try to prevent this. I have had nausea while we have been on vacation, but again, I am in a different place, eating no-so-great food and might be PMSing, so this wouldn't be a surprise. I wish I could say I had "implantation bleeding" or something really significant, but nothing yet. Again, have to wait the week out.
On a different note, I had a beautiful anniversary day with the Hubby. We walked around Savannah for two hours in the sweltering heat looking for a breakfast place and went to a fancy schmany restaurant for dinner and got seated at a romantic table by the window, which had ants crawling over it. OK, enough of the sarcasm. It was actually an amazing day.
I will keep you posted as the week goes by as to when AF arrives (boo!) or if we get a BFP (yea!)
I'm hoping that it was too early for anything to show up and not that this month is a wash. According to my chart, I'm 4 days from testing, but since I'm not 100% sure when my body is ovulating, etc. (going off the pill is awesome!) I can't really be sure if when I thought I was ovulating was in fact the day. (I thought I got a positive OPK, but I also could have misread that as well.) I am supposed to get my period on Friday or Saturday, but again, my cycles are still a little unpredictable from going off the pill. I have been have 33-34 day cycles for the last few month so that's what I have been going with. Again, that annoying little thing called "time" comes into play and I will just have to wait and see what this weekend brings or doesn't bring. I prefer the latter.
As for any symptoms so far, my face was very broken out right before we left for the trip and is starting to clear up as the days go by, which is a normal PMS symptom for me, so that one doesn't seem to get me excited. I was having those weird cramps last week, which I thought was too early for PMS, but since my cycles are still unpredictable it could just mean AF could be coming earlier then this weekend. I have had no real breast sensitivity, other then a few issues with my nipples (isn't being a woman fun?!) but again, those could be both PG symptoms and PMS symptoms. As for nausea, I have been experiencing this since I started taking prenatal vitamins and just stitched my brand to try to prevent this. I have had nausea while we have been on vacation, but again, I am in a different place, eating no-so-great food and might be PMSing, so this wouldn't be a surprise. I wish I could say I had "implantation bleeding" or something really significant, but nothing yet. Again, have to wait the week out.
On a different note, I had a beautiful anniversary day with the Hubby. We walked around Savannah for two hours in the sweltering heat looking for a breakfast place and went to a fancy schmany restaurant for dinner and got seated at a romantic table by the window, which had ants crawling over it. OK, enough of the sarcasm. It was actually an amazing day.
I will keep you posted as the week goes by as to when AF arrives (boo!) or if we get a BFP (yea!)
Sunday, August 8, 2010
1 Year Ago Today.....
1 year ago today I was still a "Miss". 1 year ago today I was putting on my white dress. 1 year ago today I was nervous and excited about what was ahead. 1 year ago today I married my best friend. 1 year ago today I wasn't even thinking about being a Mom.
Today, I am a "Mrs." who still remembers the feeling of that white dress. Today I am still nervous and excited about what is ahead. Today I celebrate being married to my best friend. Today, I can't wait to be a Mom.
Time is a funny thing. We try to find ways to stop it, yet marvel in how fast it flies by.
Here's to the next 365. May you bring much but take your time doing it.
Today, I am a "Mrs." who still remembers the feeling of that white dress. Today I am still nervous and excited about what is ahead. Today I celebrate being married to my best friend. Today, I can't wait to be a Mom.
Time is a funny thing. We try to find ways to stop it, yet marvel in how fast it flies by.
Here's to the next 365. May you bring much but take your time doing it.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Cramping My Style...
So the body has a weird way of playing horrible tricks on you. For the last day or so, I have been getting the weirdest cramps. They are similar to period cramps but AF isn't due until a week from Saturday so it seems early for PMS cramps which makes me (hopefully) think they might be implantation cramps.
That would of course mean I got pregnant this cycle which would be amazing for only 2 months of trying. I am pessimist though so I'm thinking they are probably my bodies way of saying "Hello...guess what AF is going to come early this month! Surprise!" Of course this would mean I would have AF while on my very romantic 1st anniversary vacation. Hubby is going to love that!!
Its obviously very early to even think of testing, so I am just going to hope that AF stays away at least till the end of my trip (or better yet doesn't come at all!)
I will keep you all posted while I'm away.
That would of course mean I got pregnant this cycle which would be amazing for only 2 months of trying. I am pessimist though so I'm thinking they are probably my bodies way of saying "Hello...guess what AF is going to come early this month! Surprise!" Of course this would mean I would have AF while on my very romantic 1st anniversary vacation. Hubby is going to love that!!
Its obviously very early to even think of testing, so I am just going to hope that AF stays away at least till the end of my trip (or better yet doesn't come at all!)
I will keep you all posted while I'm away.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Have a Nice Trip.
Today began my TWW and I'm not feeling too confident about this month, but Hubby says "he did the job" so we will see. Hubby and I will actually be on vacation (for our 1st anniversary) when I'm supposed to be visited by AF (or not!). As for where we are going, Hubby and I decided on Savannah, Georgia. We wanted to go somewhere romantic to celebrate our anniversary, but also somewhere that wasn't too "resort like" or "vacationy", since we have done those trips in the past and for our Honeymoon. Savannah seemed perfect for the type of vacation we wanted and would still offer us a nice place to stay and things to do.
As I countdown the days until we leave, and even more importantly, our first anniversary, I still can't believe it's been a year since I get married. I never thought this time last year, as I was rushing around with last minute dress fittings and rearranging the seating chart for the 10th time, that I would now be consumed with baby dancing and OPKs, but that's where I find myself 365 days later. I am definitely not complaining. Being a Mom has been on my to-do list for quite a while, but now that's it a reality, I sometimes have to remind myself how fast times flies. Knowing this could very likely be our last vacation as a "twosome," we are making an extra effort to enjoy this vacation as much as possible. Having dinner in a romantic restaurant, a riverboat gambling cruise and even a late night ghost tour are all on the agenda. All very "not baby friendly" activities. We know this time next year we could be getting ready for a trip to the hospital instead of vacation trip.
I had visions of getting pregnant while on vacation (how cute would it have been to name a daughter Savannah), but thanks to going of BC and my irregular cycles that won't be happening. Instead, we will have to settle for finding out if we are "with child" towards the end of our trip. Still could be very romantic and make for a very memorable trip. Better start looking for a drug store near the hotel, just in case.
As I countdown the days until we leave, and even more importantly, our first anniversary, I still can't believe it's been a year since I get married. I never thought this time last year, as I was rushing around with last minute dress fittings and rearranging the seating chart for the 10th time, that I would now be consumed with baby dancing and OPKs, but that's where I find myself 365 days later. I am definitely not complaining. Being a Mom has been on my to-do list for quite a while, but now that's it a reality, I sometimes have to remind myself how fast times flies. Knowing this could very likely be our last vacation as a "twosome," we are making an extra effort to enjoy this vacation as much as possible. Having dinner in a romantic restaurant, a riverboat gambling cruise and even a late night ghost tour are all on the agenda. All very "not baby friendly" activities. We know this time next year we could be getting ready for a trip to the hospital instead of vacation trip.
I had visions of getting pregnant while on vacation (how cute would it have been to name a daughter Savannah), but thanks to going of BC and my irregular cycles that won't be happening. Instead, we will have to settle for finding out if we are "with child" towards the end of our trip. Still could be very romantic and make for a very memorable trip. Better start looking for a drug store near the hotel, just in case.
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