Dear Me,
I want to tell you that you need to calm down about all this TTC stuff. You need to understand that things happen when they are supposed to. I know you are obsessed with control, but unfortunately this is one thing you cannot control and need to accept that. You have an amazing husband, loving family and friends, finally a career you love and four "furry babies" that love you unconditionally. Most importantly, I want you to know that the stress and anxiety you are bringing upon yourself is not helping! You need to love yourself, embrace the life you have now and be patient for what the future holds.
Love, Me
I have needed to write this letter to myself since the day Hubby told me he was ready for a baby. What I mean by this, is that I knew I would work myself up as this process continued. I was excited the first month of TTC, and now on month 3, I am driving myself crazy that something is wrong, when I know its normal to take as much as 1 year to conceive. To help with controlling my anxiety, I read a lot of blogs and TTC boards. It makes me feel better that I am not the only woman out there who drives herself crazy with random TTC thoughts throughout the day.
So here's where I stand after writing myself that letter to myself. I am going to try really really hard to hide my OPKs and thermometer. I was told tonight "Stop making a baby and start having sex." (Basically translated into - "Will you please start having fun having sex with your husband?!!!) I know I have this whole process backwards. I should have done what I promised my husband and just had fun in the beginning and worried about the temperatures and OPKs down the line, but you live and you learn (and then you slap yourself on the forehead and say "snap out of it!")
One last thought - I have spent the last 10 years of my life trying to avoid getting pregnant. I find it extremely ironic that I am now doing everything and anything in my power to try to get pregnant. Life is very, very funny. I am trying really, really hard to laugh.
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Showing posts with label TTC. Show all posts
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
Monday Morning Chuckle
Here is a good laugh for all my TTC girls out there. I realized this morning while reading one of my many TTC websites and blogs, that I have been using my OPK's at the wrong time of day. I thought by getting my butt out of bed bright and early and peeing in my little cup first thing in the morning I would be ahead of the game. Nope. DiamondMomma messed this one up.
According to this website and many others, you are supposed to test around 2pm. Ugg. So much for this month's worth of tests. I am supposed to be ovulating this week, so hopefully I can start testing this afternoon and continue the rest of the week and hope I didn't miss my LH surge.
The lesson learned from all this - Make sure you really read all those TTC websites/blogs very carefully. You might think you are ahead of the game when in fact that first morning bathroom trip you are running out of bed for is really costing you precious minutes of sleep and a lot of pee sticks!
I will keep you all posted after I test this afternoon. I had a little spike in my temperature this morning so maybe that is a good sign. See you later!
PS/ I am babysitting my nephew (my hubby's brother's son) right now. He has to be the cutest, happiest baby ever! I am really excited to have kids when I am with him because I will be loving life if mine turn out like him. I am also completely terrified of having kids when I'm with him because the odds of this kid's temperament being repeated could be slim too none.
Take a look at this kid! Is he not the cutest?! Let's hope happy genes run in my hubby's family!
According to this website and many others, you are supposed to test around 2pm. Ugg. So much for this month's worth of tests. I am supposed to be ovulating this week, so hopefully I can start testing this afternoon and continue the rest of the week and hope I didn't miss my LH surge.
The lesson learned from all this - Make sure you really read all those TTC websites/blogs very carefully. You might think you are ahead of the game when in fact that first morning bathroom trip you are running out of bed for is really costing you precious minutes of sleep and a lot of pee sticks!
I will keep you all posted after I test this afternoon. I had a little spike in my temperature this morning so maybe that is a good sign. See you later!
PS/ I am babysitting my nephew (my hubby's brother's son) right now. He has to be the cutest, happiest baby ever! I am really excited to have kids when I am with him because I will be loving life if mine turn out like him. I am also completely terrified of having kids when I'm with him because the odds of this kid's temperament being repeated could be slim too none.
Take a look at this kid! Is he not the cutest?! Let's hope happy genes run in my hubby's family!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Keeping It Fun....
According to my handy dandy cell phone app "My Days", right now is my prime baby making time. This means that now until ovulation day, me and Hubby are supposed to be baby making like crazy. Easier said then done. This "prime time" usually lasts about 7 days and honestly, between work and other stuff going on, sometimes the Hubby and I like to "go to bed early" just to go to bed early. I can see why making babies can take a little while. Don't get me wrong, we are definitely "trying" as much as we can, but more importantly we are trying to keep it fun and unpredictable, a promise we made to ourselves at the start of this so we wouldn't feel like "baby dancing" was becoming a chore. I have, however, found ways to make sure that we are at least doing the "dance" at all the right times.
To keep you updated, this is what I have been doing so far: I wake up every morning at 7:30am (yes even on Saturdays and Sundays) to check my BBT; I pee on a OPK every morning as well - this will probably not last long though due to the expense of the monthly kits; I also very casually track my CM - I have not resorted to actually keeping track of this 100%, just seems too icky at this point, but for those who know what is involved with this, sometimes you can't avoid noticing the loveliness that is happening down under. So far, all of these methods have shown I am ovulating every month which is definitely a plus, but whether the use of all these things will lead to a "plus sign," only time and lots of "baby dancing" will tell.
At this point, Hubby and I are in the midst of month two of TTC and have no reason for concern. If you ask doctors and professionals, they say 6 months - 1 year is normal for TTC. I know me, and me says I will not make 6 months, so I will probably hold out for maybe 5 months and then schedule a doctors appointment during month 6 so I can say that I have been trying for the accepted time frame. Hopefully, things will happen sooner then later and 9 months from now I can be posting about birthing plans instead of baby making. But in the meantime, I will continue with temperature taking and peeing on sticks. Oh yea, and "baby dancing". We are going to continue to do that. Like I said earlier, it's not a chore yet and we are having lots of fun, so we will continue to do what works for us. And if that means, what works for us is going to bed early to sleep, that's what we will do. We both know we won't be getting much time to do that, or any other chores for that matter, once the "plus sign" becomes a "plus 1 more".
To keep you updated, this is what I have been doing so far: I wake up every morning at 7:30am (yes even on Saturdays and Sundays) to check my BBT; I pee on a OPK every morning as well - this will probably not last long though due to the expense of the monthly kits; I also very casually track my CM - I have not resorted to actually keeping track of this 100%, just seems too icky at this point, but for those who know what is involved with this, sometimes you can't avoid noticing the loveliness that is happening down under. So far, all of these methods have shown I am ovulating every month which is definitely a plus, but whether the use of all these things will lead to a "plus sign," only time and lots of "baby dancing" will tell.
At this point, Hubby and I are in the midst of month two of TTC and have no reason for concern. If you ask doctors and professionals, they say 6 months - 1 year is normal for TTC. I know me, and me says I will not make 6 months, so I will probably hold out for maybe 5 months and then schedule a doctors appointment during month 6 so I can say that I have been trying for the accepted time frame. Hopefully, things will happen sooner then later and 9 months from now I can be posting about birthing plans instead of baby making. But in the meantime, I will continue with temperature taking and peeing on sticks. Oh yea, and "baby dancing". We are going to continue to do that. Like I said earlier, it's not a chore yet and we are having lots of fun, so we will continue to do what works for us. And if that means, what works for us is going to bed early to sleep, that's what we will do. We both know we won't be getting much time to do that, or any other chores for that matter, once the "plus sign" becomes a "plus 1 more".
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
The Name Game
Do you want to know how I knew my husband was really ready to have a baby? "Pulling the goalie" was of course one of the most obvious signs he gave, but I feel it was his willingness to play the "name game" with me that really did it. What is the "name game"? For me, its where you spend waste less hours in front of the computer surfing the baby name websites for the most unique, creative baby names and then start collecting those names in a secret file on your phone or computer until the BFP arrives and you actually have a reason to start taking claim to them.
Hubby and I sat on the couch last night playing the "name game". Of course, I got some, "no way in hells" and "are you kidding me? They will beat up our kid with that name", but at least he was offering his input. "The name game" is something I played in secret for awhile. I didn't want to freak the Hubby out. TTC was a little bit of a sore subject in our house, especially since he was very adamant about not being ready and my persistence was starting to become "very annoying" (his words).
His willingness now to participate in such a silly game means a lot to me. I have wondered more then once if he gave into TTC because he didn't want to listen to me whine anymore or he was worried that I slowly was going crazy and might even resort to stealing babies from the mall. (This would have never been an option, by the way. I was willing to wait for my own pregnancy. Excessive weight gain, stretch marks and numerous trips to the bathroom to pee are just too awesome to pass up.) I don't have any reason to worry anymore though. I see my husband around other people's babies and notice how he lights up and smiles at them. He even seems to think the poop faces my 6 month nephew makes are cute. (It will be even cuter when its our baby making poopy faces and he has to change that diaper.)
I love how my Hubby is now an active and willing participant in the "name game", even throwing in a few suggestions of his own. While we have yet to agree fully on a boy and girl name (Hubby doesn't seem to be a fan of me getting ideas from the celebrity baby blogs. I'm not really keen on naming our first born after his favorite Russian hockey players.), we can at least agree that we are 100% sure that the TTC game is one we are happy to be players in. And if your wondering how we decide who wins the "name game"? Well, when I'm in my 32nd hour of labor and he has lost all feeling in his right hand from me squeezing it too hard, I'm thinking he might be a little more open to all those celebrity baby names I have been suggesting.
For anyone else playing the "name game" right now, here's some of my favorite websites"
www.babynames.com
www.babynamewizard.com
www.mybabyname.com
Hubby and I sat on the couch last night playing the "name game". Of course, I got some, "no way in hells" and "are you kidding me? They will beat up our kid with that name", but at least he was offering his input. "The name game" is something I played in secret for awhile. I didn't want to freak the Hubby out. TTC was a little bit of a sore subject in our house, especially since he was very adamant about not being ready and my persistence was starting to become "very annoying" (his words).
His willingness now to participate in such a silly game means a lot to me. I have wondered more then once if he gave into TTC because he didn't want to listen to me whine anymore or he was worried that I slowly was going crazy and might even resort to stealing babies from the mall. (This would have never been an option, by the way. I was willing to wait for my own pregnancy. Excessive weight gain, stretch marks and numerous trips to the bathroom to pee are just too awesome to pass up.) I don't have any reason to worry anymore though. I see my husband around other people's babies and notice how he lights up and smiles at them. He even seems to think the poop faces my 6 month nephew makes are cute. (It will be even cuter when its our baby making poopy faces and he has to change that diaper.)
I love how my Hubby is now an active and willing participant in the "name game", even throwing in a few suggestions of his own. While we have yet to agree fully on a boy and girl name (Hubby doesn't seem to be a fan of me getting ideas from the celebrity baby blogs. I'm not really keen on naming our first born after his favorite Russian hockey players.), we can at least agree that we are 100% sure that the TTC game is one we are happy to be players in. And if your wondering how we decide who wins the "name game"? Well, when I'm in my 32nd hour of labor and he has lost all feeling in his right hand from me squeezing it too hard, I'm thinking he might be a little more open to all those celebrity baby names I have been suggesting.
For anyone else playing the "name game" right now, here's some of my favorite websites"
www.babynames.com
www.babynamewizard.com
www.mybabyname.com
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